Maybe I am just not the girl people fall in love with.

I can easily say I have never had a relationship were I just felt comfortable in, or felt like the feelings in it were one hundred percent mutual and I didn’t have to feel like I needed to put extra effort into it to keep it going. No, I will not sit here and blame the whole male race for “sucking” or anything like that. I know for a fact that good men do exist I won’t ever be THAT girl. The girl who always prances around saying “Oh, there just isn’t good men out there” or “I don’t see why I am single I am a catch and a half”. That’s just simply not my thing, I for one know I can be a pain in the ass in a relationship I won’t lie. I get jealous, I worry, and I might seem clingy, but when I say I have the best intentions, I mean it. As much as I know I am a great person, I don’t think people stick around to really see it. They get what they want from me, whatever it may be, and they leave. Maybe I should put a wall up, just a little. Maybe I let people into my heart before they earn their spot there. Maybe I am emotionally easy. I AM A EMOTIONAL SLUT. I give my feelings up too soon. Hahah. I just coined a new phrase, awww shit. No but back to what I was originally saying, I think that’s why I don’t ever get the date or the man/girl. I don’t put up a hard enough challenge. I just don’t know how to be “challenging” cause I am sure honest and blunt in every since of my being that it would almost feel hypocritical to hold back. Like I’d be lying. Don’t get me wrong, I am not ranting cause I am bitter I am alone. Being alone taught me a lot about myself. I am also not the single girl who’s life revolves around finding the one, cause I really am very patient over this all. I rather wait years for the right one, than chase down every guy I see like who might we name? *cough* Taylor Swift *cough*. I sort of feel bad for her, I really do. As insecure and emotional wreck I am, I can easily say I am not insecure enough where I NEED that other person by my side. So when girls like her come around I feel bad cause you have to feel so bad being on your own you are constantly chasing down Prince Charming in every male that looks your way even if they clearly don’t deserve any of your time. I don’t know where I am going with this post, so I’ll end it here. I just am trying to figure out what I have to tweak about myself to make me the girl people want to bring home to momma.

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About juliahliz182

I am nineteen, turning twenty sooner than I previously planned on. I wish I could tell you where I am going in life, but I don't have the slightest clue. All I know for sure is that I love the smell after it rains, animals, getting lost in books, and Blink 182. I am studying Psychology with no idea of where I am going to take it. I guess I'll leave the rest for you to figure out.

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